Friday, February 26, 2010

"By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another." in John 13:35.

In the Beth Moore Bible Study, David, that my Monday night Bible Study group just finished, one of the chapters is entitled "Old Enemies". Throughout his life, David battled the Philistines, again and again. And, towards the latter part of his life, as King David returned to Jerusalem, he found a situation where he had to take back his throne, because no one was going to hand it over to him. And, just as he was finally about to proclaim victory, the Philistines were at it again. Again, he had to fight the Philistines--the enemy he'd been fighting over and over. And it tells us that David grew exhausted in battle--that he became weary of fighting the same enemy over and over again. According to Beth Moore, the word for exhausted in Hebrew is Uwhp, which means "to cover, to fly, faint, flee away"--the overwhelming desire to run and hide.

We covered this chapter weeks and weeks ago, but these words came back to me this past week, as I found myself fighting old enemies again. Enemies that I've been fighting again and again and that, when I find myself battling them yet again, make me even more frustrated because I thought (or hoped, rather) that they were done with. Taken care of. Enemies like selfishness, pride, anger. Nothing out of the ordinary for a broken world and unfortunately not new things for my life, but things that cause strife and pain and conflict that I'd rather avoid.

And, as we got to church this weekend, I found myself still battling these enemies still, in very concrete ways (though from the outside if most people saw me they'd never know it ). And I sat in church just feeling so broken, feeling so mad at myself and, because I was trying to do it on my own, hopeless that I could be the kind of person I wanted to be. That I could change.

Then, right before the sermon, the band at church started playing "Victory in Jesus". And as I was singing along, my awareness of my brokenness made me really listen to the words I was singing with a hunger for Jesus and His ability to heal and make things whole. And as we started to sing the third stanza, tears started welling up in my eyes.

I heard about His healing,
Of His cleansing pow'r revealing.
How He made the lame to walk again
And caused the blind to see;
And then I cried, "Dear Jesus,
Come and heal my broken spirit,"
And somehow Jesus came and bro't
To me the victory.


It did two things to my heart, simultaneously, as I soaked in the words.

I immediately felt a burned lifted as I felt Jesus saying that everything would be alright, that he would heal my broken spirit and help me to be the person I wanted to be. I was so incredibly thankful to Him for his love. And that sounds silly as I type it out, very churchy, but it was so, so real.

And, it struck me just how hard, how lonely, how hopeless this world, this life, must be if you don't know Jesus. When you hit rock bottom, or even just have a bad week, what do you do when you don't have anyone to cry out to? How must it feel when you don't know you have God fighting for you and promising to heal you? What is life like when you don't know Jesus? When you don't know the price He paid for you and just how much He loves you and is for you?

For the last few hours, literally (I've had it on repeat on Itunes, probably driving Landon crazy :)), I've had Matt Mahr's new song playing. It's called Hold Us Together and I would highly recommend you listening to it--it's AWESOME.

Love, will, hold us together
Make us a shelter
to weather the storm
And I'll, be, my brothers keeper
So the whole world will know
That we're not alone

This is the first, day of the rest of your life
This is the first, day of the rest of your life
'Cause even in the dark you can still see the light
It's gonna be alright, s'gonna be alright

In this broken, hurting world, we are called to be our brother's keeper. We are called to love, above and beyond, and not just when it's easy. It's easy for me to love my students, who I know come from broken homes and hard situations. It's easy for me to look out for them and go above and beyond and do what I can to help. For some others in my life, that above and beyond kind of love, that brother's keeper kind of love, that let's broken, hurting people know they're not alone, doesn't come so easily. In fact, not easily at all. But we're still called to love them.

And I like the last stanza. This is the first day of the rest of your life. How I've lived, how I've loved, the person I've been in the past, is in the past. Today is the first day of the rest of my life--it's time to start loving, really loving, in order to point people to Jesus, who is the one who can heal and restore and bring life. And remember and really believe and have hope in the fact that He can and will do the same in my life.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Readers and Writers

On Monday of this week, I walked into my little reading pull out class right after the bell rang and saw this--


All of the kids were gathered around our table, had pulled out the book basket without me asking (or even being in the room), partnered themselves up and were reading books together. Now, seeing kids reading pretty much melts my heart anyway, but seeing these kids reading--and doing it on their own without my prompting--really melted my heart. And totally just made my day.

While I would have to say that in many ways they are my favorite class, it's been a year. Partially because I have never had to teach anyone to read and partly because they've been in America for 4-5 years and still don't know how to read and have learned ways to cope with that--so there were a lot of barriers to be broken down in order for them to let me in and begin to help them see that they are capable of learning.

And, it's been a lot of what feels at times like guess and check. I read a lot and talk to my elementary school teacher friends and try things out and look at their work and discover 52 more different things they need to learn and talk to their other teachers and tweak what we're doing and try new things and see if they're working and then find new ways to help them learn and pray that it works. And now, finally, we're starting to see some payoff. About 2 weeks ago both the kids and I realized, I think on the same day, as they were reading aloud to one another, that they're getting it. They're only reading on a K-1 reading level mind you, but they're starting to get it. They now know that that letters have sounds and those sounds are how you read a word and how you sound out a word to spell it. And when you string a whole bunch of words together it makes a sentence and you can read a sentence when you know the letter sounds and when you memorize the words you keep seeing over and over again. And, while it's not perfect yet, they're able to do it--to read and to write. And, they're starting to feel confident and excited. And they come everyday and ask questions and want to learn, whereas until about 3 weeks ago it was a fight to teach them anything, because their coping mechanism, rather than let on just how much they didn't know and just how hard English was, was to be silly.



We've still got a long way to go (I'm hoping I get to work with them for the next 2 years and then see them graduate middle school and go to high school!) because they're still not anywhere near 6th grade level, but they're getting there. We're working on learning names for common, everyday objects, we're learning how to spell, we're learning how to read, we're trying to remember what sounds letters make in English as opposed to other languages, we're memorizing sight words and letter sounds and how to tell the vowel sounds apart because, dang it, that's hard stuff. And we're trying to put it all together to become English-literate people. And, despite their silliness, they've been working hard and I'm so proud of them.

Today as we were cleaning up the room at the end of the period I asked them if reading and writing was getting easier. They all said yes. And then one of my little girls said, in her cute little African accent, "when I first came here I didn't know nothing about English and now I know alot--I can read books."

I could have quit my job today and been happy. We'll deal with the double negatives later :).

(Ok, well, I couldn't really quit happy, but I definitely went home happy today and on pumped about working with them tomorrow! :))

Triathlon Training

I think we're finally getting into the swing of triathlon training here in the Speights household. It's getting to where swimming and biking, along with running, are commonplace, everyday things--even though it is SO hard for me to convince myself that it's fun to jump into a cold pool on these cold days we're having! But, the bike rides are fun--especially the outdoor ones. I feel so fast as I zoom by the runners at the bike park we ride at (which is the same one we started our marathon training at)--even though I know the next day I'll be the one getting passed by all the bikers, haha!

And, last week we found a huge sale at our local triathlon store and Landon finally got his wetsuit--they even let him test it out at their huge endless pool, since he's going to be doing an Ironman. It was pretty cool--I would love to have one of these at my house, if only they didn't cost, oh thousands and thousands of dollars. :) So, I think for now we'll stick to the pool at the gym.


And, while I'm not nearly as anxious about the triathlon as I was about the marathon (though I probably should be!), it's hard to believe that's its creeping up this quickly on us--only about 2 more months until we do the Galveston triathlon and less than four months until Landon's Ironman in June. Crazy--they seemed so far off when we signed up for them!

We know we can do each of the three parts of the Galveston triathlon separately (mine is a .6 mile swim, a 28 mile bike ride and a 6 mile run--and Landon's is twice as long), we're really curious how it's going to be when we put them all together! Hopefully it will be as fun as everyone says. :)

We're training together at the moment, as in we're doing the same distances together each day, but I have a feeling that soon Landon will leave me in his dust as he gets into his 100 mile bike rides and such to prepare for his race in June. We'll see though--I'll hang with him as long as I can!


Sunday, February 21, 2010

First Family, again :)



I know I've been putting up pictures almost weekly of our small group at church lately, but I just can't help it. We've been meeting every weekend for the study we're doing and we just have so much fun each time we get together that I love having some pictures to rememeber it. When we're older and have kids and are in different life stages, I want to be able to go back and remember how life was now. I want to remember us as (fairly) newly marrieds, as 26 and 27 year olds. I want to remember the friends we hung out with (who will hopefully still be the friends we're hanging out with later down the road also). I want to remember how things are right now, because, while it definitely has it's ups and downs, it's good days and bad days, things are fun right now. We're loving each other and loving life and loving trying new things and making new friends. And it's a time that I don't want to forget.

as always, yummy food--pepperoni penne and homemade biscotti (among other things)

Matt and Rachel, sans baby

Landon and Brandon goofing off, after we put the powdered sugar on the cannoli's we made

I love Landon--he's so much fun and full of life and makes my life infinitely better just by being him :)

There were lots of laughs, all night long.

settling in to begin the Bible study after dinner

Landon and I on the HUGE comfy chair!

We are so blessed to have such an awesome greoup of friends--it is such an answer to prayer.



Friday, February 19, 2010

Good Eats and Good Friends

Every other Wednesday night (or so) Landon and I have a standing dinner date with 2 of our good friends, Brandon and Brittnie, with the only rule being that each time we go out to eat, it has to be a restuarant we haven't been to yet--or at least most of us haven't been to.


This last week we went to The Hobbit Cafe, which was a fun, funky little restuarant down off Richmond and 59. The waitstaff was friendly, the food was good and the night was an all around good time. Landon and I love having a night of the week to just relax and chat and take a break from everyday life--and eat some good food. I would definitely recommend The Hobbit Cafe if you live in the area and are looking for a new, slightly different place to try out---did I mention that all of the decor, menu items etc. are along the Lord of the Rings theme, hence the name? So fun.
We've also tried a few other places so far, all of which I would recommend you grabbing a friend and trying out--
Thai Spice (where the adventure began:))

Niko Niko's


Barnaby's Cafe

Hungry's Cafe

And, we're still trying to decide where to go next time--any suggestions??

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Abagael

Last weekend Landon's brother and his family came in town for an event with his wife's famiy and stayed at our house, which is always a treat. We love having them over--and especially love getting to spend time with our niece, Abagael. She's sweet and funny and we have a blast hanging out with her!

Uncle Landon and Abagael hanging out on the couch after her nap, playing some Wii. I love seeing him with her because I know he's going to be such an awesome dad one day.

Then, GranPam and Pepaw came over to baby-sit that night and did some fun Valentine's day arts and crafts projects together. :)

And we ended the trip with a quick morning before church--hanging out with the dogs (she loves Baby, because she is just the right size!) and eating some breakfast together. So fun.

Thanks for coming down our way, Logan and Elizabeth, and for sharing your sweet girl with us.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Happy (belated) birthday, Dad!

Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you,

happy birthday, dear Dad,

happy birthday to you!!!

Thanks for being the best dad a girl could wish for. I love you!

Monday, February 15, 2010

Updates...

While I'm sitting at home, enjoying a relaxing day off from work, and enjoying a blissfully quiet house as the dogs are playing outside and Landon is out golfing with some friends from the Texans, I thought I'd update a little about our life lately.

Our only real exciting news is that, after years of talking about doing it, we finally booked a Mediterranean cruise for this July with Blake and Morgan, two of our good friends and our traveling buddies. We're SO excited--and having a blast planning it! It's only 3 days after Landon finishes his Ironman, so we'll definitely be celebrating his accomplishing that--and enjoying relaxing because all of the hours of training will be over. :) SOOO...if anyone has been to Paris, Rome, Pisa, Florence, Barcelona (and there's a couple of other stops, but I'm drawing a blank and can't remember them at the moment!) and has any recommendations of things to do--we'd love to hear it!!

Other than that, it's really just life as normal. We're getting in the groove of work and triathlon training and how to still have a life on top of it all. Our first triathlon (and my only one on the calendar for now) is the last weekend in April and then Landon's Ironman is in June--both of which remind me that summer will be here almost before we know it. I was looking at the calendar and Spring Break is only 2 weeks away--and the end of school ALWAYS flys by after Spring Break. It's crazy, really.

And speaking of work, its going well these days, overall. For Landon, work is pretty steady, which is awesome. And, I'm so jealous of the fact that he get's to make his own schedule. :) I love hearing him on the phone with clients because he's so good to them--and really knows what he's doing, which is so cool to me because I would have NO idea how to do his job. He still has mostly CPS clients, which is what he wanted, with a few random criminal cases thrown in there to pay the bills. I think he still enjoys the work, but I know working for yourself can be lonely at times, so we'll see how God works things out.

For me, work is overall pretty good. My three problem students from the first semester got sent to an alternative school for a few months and, because I ran into him at our 8th grade dance on Friday, found out that my little darling who jumped out the window to escape detention, is back. He came running up to me and the first words out of his mouth were "Hey Ms. Speights--did you miss me??" Then, he proceeded to tell me that he was "reformed"--haha, they must have used that word at the school he was at. So, we'll see. I have him in class tomorrow and I'm praying he truly is "reformed". The other two boys just got worse at the school they got sent to, so they're still there, according to my one little reformed one.

Other than that though, classes are going well. I love the social issues interpretation unit we're in and the book clubs their in are having awesome discussions. It's just fun--too bad out TAKS prep unit starts next week. Oh well. With my low ESL kids I'm struggling with how much I'm really teaching them--I know they're making progress, but they're not where I want them to be, which is frustrating. So, I'm trying to make the most of the time I have left with them--they're working hard and I'm working hard, so hopefully the next few months will be fruitful. I just want them to have a fair shot in life.

Outside of work, we are loving getting to know friends better--and loving meeting with our small group from church every weekend during this month for our Bible study. We went on Saturday and were so blessed by it--we're loving getting to know everyone better.

And this weekend, we enjoyed living near family. We celebrated my dad's birthday Friday night and then Saturday night had Landon's entire family over at our house because his brother and sister in law were in town. So, a good time was had all around--though I was thankful for a long nap to recover from all the fun on Sunday afternoon! :)

And, I'm thankful for today, a day to catch up on little things like blogging--even though what I really should be catching up on are things like laundry and dishes. :)

Pam's first half marathon :)


This Saturday my sweet mother in law walked her first half marathon out in Surfside (on the beach!) with Wes. We got up and biked that morning and then drove out just in time to see them cross the finish line! Way to go Pam!! We're so proud of you! :)


Sunday, February 14, 2010

Love

Last Monday night, when I got home from my Bible study around 8pm, this is what I saw through the window in our back door--and I had to do a double take to make sure it was really there.

We've been looking for a road bike for me for about a month now (for our triathlons coming up in a couple of months), without any luck. Then, on Monday we found this one on Craig's List and Landon, without me having any knowledge of what he was doing, went out and met the lady. And then he bought it from her (and even managed to get her to throw in her like-new bike shoes and bike computer) and set it all up to surprise me before he left to go play volleyball that night. It's gorgeous--and totally the colors I would have picked out!

And, not only was the counter covered with my bike and the bike accessories, he also had some of my favorite flowers (tulips), along with some other pretty pink ones, and 2 boxes of my favorite candy (chocolate covered cherries). I honestly could not have asked for a better surprise--it totally made my day, especially at the end of a very long Monday.


But I think possibly my favorite part of the whole set up was the card. Words are definitely my love language and Landon knows that--and the card was SO exactly what I needed--and meant so much more because words are not his love language. :) It had been a hard couple of weeks and to hear someone say (both with actions and words) that they love you no matter what, forever, is such a blessing. I got all teared up as I was reading it, because it reminded me of how lucky I am to be married to a man who loves me so well and so completely. And it reminded me of how thankful I am to know God, who gave Landon to me and who loves both of us more wonderfully than we will ever be able to love one another.


Then, on Monday we took the bikes out for a ride around the neighborhood--my first time riding a bike with clip in pedals. It was a little nerve-wracking at first (I was so afraid I would fall over and not be able to catch myself because my feet wouldn't come unclipped, haha) but we made it home in without any wrecks. And, despite the cold, it was SO fun. I can't wait to go out riding again!!


Thank you Landon, for showing your love to me in such a real and tangible way. I am so lucky that you're mine. :) Happy Valentine's Day, babe!

Sunday, February 7, 2010

GO SAINTS!!

I think I could hear my family cheering all the way from New Orleans (and everywhere else around the country that they've moved to) tonight as the Saints beat the Colts! I'm so excited that they won!!

We celebrated the Super Bowl tonight with some friends and, in honor of the Saints being in the Super Bowl I, after years of watching my mom and grandparents make it, made my very first gumbo on my own. And, I think it turned out alright, which was exciting!


And, because it has become tradition for him to bring something awesome made out of rice krispy treats, Landon made this football. Pretty cool babe. :)


We had a blast hanging out with friends--the guys who really wanted to watch the game, Landon and Brandon set up Landon's projector outside and they sat out there in the freezing cold to watch it. That's dedication. :) The rest of us sat in the living room to watch (and talk!).


Way to go Saints! After all these years, and after everything the city's been through in the last few years, it was pretty cool to see them win.