Pregnancy Thoughts

So.  We're 6 weeks and 2 days from our official due date.  And 5 weeks and 4 days away from our unofficial due date.  Does that sound super close to anyone else??  I feel like we went from being 20 weeks to 33 weeks overnight.

Landon came with me to our appointment today, so we got to see Aedan as well as hear his heartbeat.  So fun.  It's crazy how much he's grown since our last ultrasound, where we found out he was a little boy.  Last time, his whole body fit on the screen at once.  This time, he had to scroll over my stomach and we got to see his little body parts one at a time, because they filled up the whole screen.  We got to see his little head, though he was facing inward so we couldn't really see his face, his stomach, his little beating heart, his legs.  So cool.  And it was fun to know what position he's in and what little body parts we've been seeing.  His head is down, which I'm pretty sure it has been this whole time.  It's his little bottom that we always see poking out on the right side of my stomach, his feet that keep kicking me in the ribs and his little hands that punch Landon in the head when he lays on/against my stomach.  I love it.

He's about four pounds, give or take a little and our doctor said he's a normal weight so far--so hopefully he doesn't get huge in the next couple of weeks!  He's supposed to gain about half a pound each week, so that would put him around 7-8 pounds when he's born, if he's on time.  Sounds good to me. :)

Last week we registered at the hospital we're delivering at and today we gave our doctor our birth plan, so it feels like we're checking things off the list.  And, our doctor seemed good with everything we wanted, so that was nice.

So far I've gained 26 pounds.  At the beginning I was freaking out to see the scale go up and up and up, but about halfway through, when it really became real that there was a little baby growing inside of me, I stopped caring so much and was just happy that he was growing and healthy.  Now I'm just trying to keep walking (and sometimes swimming with Landon) to stay in shape and healthy and not worry too much about the weight.  It'll come off eventually, right? :)

We've been looking around for a pediatrician and it's kinda been stressing me out because I want someone we can trust and talk to and who is open to what we want/think and not just wanting to write a prescription for everything.  I think we've found one in our area that we at least want to go talk to, who a number of people have recommended, so that makes me feel a little better. 

It's just crazy to think that in just a few weeks there's going to be this little boy that we're completely responsible for.  There are so many things to think about and decisions to make and options to weigh.  I don't know how single moms or dads do it alone.  Or how people handle it without knowing God and being able to turn to Him for wisdom and guidance.  I love that God has entrusted us with this little life, but thinking about it can be overwhelming at times, because there just so much we don't know.  I guess we'll just learn as we go.

I go back and forth these days on how I feel about him being so close to being here--sometimes I'm just so completely excited to meet him and hold him and see what he looks like and have him at our house and sometimes I'm completely terrified at the same thought.  Sometimes I'm excited and terrified at the same time. :)

I love it all though.  Today while I was out walking today and enjoying this beautiful weather we're having, it hit me again how incredibly happy I am because we're right where I've wanted to be for so long.  As far back as I can remember, I've been so excited about being a mom and having a family of my own and now, God willing, that's about to be a reality.  We are so blessed and I am so excited to be right where we are.